uncomfortable expansion

Confession:

Like most introverts…

I’m much more comfortable typing on a keyboard than talking on camera.

So when I decided to run a live workshop for my audience last month…

I knew I’d be battling anxiety in the run-up.

And, sure enough…

I was a total wreck in the week leading up to the workshop.

My sleep was awful.

I’d wake up in the middle of the night and lie awake for hours…

Reviewing every possible (and illogical) way the thing could go wrong.

- “no one’s gonna buy”
- “the people who do buy won’t show up”
- “even if people show up, no one will stay til the end”
- “what if my internet cuts out?”
- “what if they start BOOING me??”
- etc etc

And no matter how many pills I popped…

A good night’s rest eluded me until I finally delivered the presentation.

All in all though, it made sense that my nervous system was jacked up.

But going into my recent community launch…

I didn’t really feel stressed at all.

I wasn’t gonna be on camera or even do anything synchronous…

So there wasn’t really anything to be stressed out about.

Or so I thought.

Because yet again…

I slept like crap through the entire launch lol

It wasn’t until it wrapped that my sleep went back to normal.

Which led me to realize:

Expansion is uncomfortable.

And it takes time to normalize new levels of growth within the business.

(at least for me)

Something I can better anticipate the next time I launch something new.

Or take on a new obligation to my audience.

Anyway, that’s all for today.

Just some food for thought if you’re in a season of growth like I am.

I’m off to see the new Fantastic Four movie tonight.

Enjoy your weekend 🤘

Jim Hamilton